Thursday, June 01, 2006

No words can express...

The first sight of him did something to her, twisted her heart round
so that it almost hurt. Absurd that a man--an ordinary, yes, a
perfectly ordinary young man-- should be able to do that to one!
That the mere look of him should set the world spinning, that his
voice should make you want--just a little--to surely should
be a pleasurable emotion, not one that hurts you with its intensity.---Agatha Christie

You don't get to choose, you just fall in love. And you get this
person who is all wrong and all right at the same time. And you know
that you love them so much except sometimes they just drive you
completely insane. And no one can explain it. And the reason its so
confusing is because its love. But, if love didn't have challenges,
what would be the point?---Party of Five

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so
vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means
someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these
defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing could
hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid
person, wanders into your stupid life. . .you give them a piece of
you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss
you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love
takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you
crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like
"maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into
a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just
in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a should-hurt,
a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.

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